PoM 71

My first girlfriend with whom I was sexually active, 50 years ago, sent me a text yesterday and said “It warms my heart that you have found the perfect wife in Alona”.

I replied: I saw movie one time. At the end it said, “This movie is dedicated to my first love…may it finally Rest In Peace”…

We can finally be friends.

I have learned something about the differences between men and women:

A woman will put up with a lot more baloney than a man will in a relationship. But, there’s a certain point, where she reaches her limit and she’s done. She moves on…and never looks back.

We men, stay love addicts our whole lives.

Unless….you have a really super strong program…Thank you God!

PoM 72

A conversation on Food:

“You are growing in your exercise sobriety…"

OA and FA don’t address this…but that is a foolish inadequacy, as we know now from the studies on inactivity and it’s relationship to coronary heart disease, stroke, cancer, diabetes and Alzheimer’s disease.

In fairness, in 1960 when OA started no one knew this. In 1998, when FA started, they were beginning to suspect it, but we’re too afraid of exercise bulimia to address it…courageously and moderately.

PoM 73

As my music expands I come into contact with more women.

I guess I hadn’t been really conscious of how few women are in my life recently.

Relationships with women are exactly like relationships with men: Feelings, boundaries, limits and needs.

But, there is one additional element, as a heterosexual man, and that is the potentiality for sex.

I really didn’t have those particular boundaries up as consciously as I would if I knew I were going to be presence of lots of women.

…but I want the music to continue to expand, so I’m willing to take responsibility for those boundaries.

PoM 74

A responsible professional musician will be very sensitive to his audience’s responses to his work to insure an uninterrupted supply of income.

But, I am a workaholic and one of the characteristics of that disease is “turning play into work”.

I need to spend some time each day doing something utterly useless. See https://uselesslybeautifulthings.com/

Gandhi spent one to four hours a day at a spinning wheel every day of his life.

I feel certain it wasn’t because he needed the clothing so badly.

PoM 75

“’A man grows old; he feels in himself that radical sense of weakness, of listlessness, of discomfort, which accompanies the advance of age; and, feeling thus, imagines himself merely sick, lulling his fears with the notion that this distressing condition is due to some particular cause, from which, as from an illness, he hopes to recover. Vain imaginings!”
Brave New World
Aldous Huxley

In the last 14 years I have upon occasion felt this fear.

But, the truth was, it was not old age, but rather poor food and exercise choices, that once I really put everything I had into “Absolute Purity”…completely disappeared.

But, I must do everything I am truly capable of…