PoM 251
“Save me, save me, save me”. Heard from the “Still, small voice” within.
"A still small voice" is a phrase describing a manifestation of God to Elijah from 1 Kings 19:12.
So…
No flour, no sugar, no meat, no dairy, no eggs, everything organic, 100% raw, green living foods three times today.
Previously there was just too much food…and too little exercise.
PoM 252
Shade boundaries:
In 81° heat, in a children’s park in San Francisco where Gummy is playing, all the adults are sitting on benches under the trees to get shaded.
I’m sitting, practicing my guitar, on the bench near a Mexican woman on an adjacent bench.
I really need to move 18 inches to my left so that I can be shaded by the tree behind me, but if I do, I will be too close to this woman, physically.
I sit in the heat for 30 minutes practicing and finally say “I need to sit closer to you to be in the shade”.
I mean how long do I exceed my limits, feeling hot, before I change my boundaries to be comfortable?
I guess when my neck started getting red.
I guess that’s where that term comes from: people that exceed their limits until the heat makes their necks red.
Typically, that term is used to note clod-like stupidity which is pretty much what I was doing.
Fortunately, this lady liked my guitar playing…
PoM 253
The State of California has a rent relief program for people whose lives and businesses were affected by COVID-19.
They are a very confused and disorganized organization.
One of my 22 recoveries is no debting, something that I learned about from Debtors Anonymous.
I’ve been sober over 30 years in that program.
But, sometimes you just have to have the courage to ask for what you need, when you need it.
PoM 254
Part of humility is accepting my limits.
My wife is so much better than me at mechanical and electronic things.
In the last four years I have learned to come to her with anything that requires adeptness in physics.
She set up my new digital/analog converter and my new digital audio workstation tonight (part of my need for creativity, expanded).
I felt so appreciative of her help.
I used to do that stuff for a living for 50 years…but she is so much better than me.
She is a Cracker Jack…
Gummy thinks so, too.
PoM 255
Step Nine (Living Amends)
Dear Brother David,
I know your plans are to be buried in Newnan Georgia, next to our mother.
I am going to be cremated and have my ashes strewn on the most beautiful place on earth, Crissy Field, 500 yards from where we were born in the Presidio of San Francisco.
The weather is beautiful, year round, and the mountains and the sea meet there in a very lovely and gentle way.
I don’t know how firm you are in your plans, but I sure would like you to be buried here next to me.
It would be nice to be able to go and talk to you often.
Your brother,
Steve
PoM 256
Step Ten:
When my food is green and my cardio is long I sleep deeply and contentedly.
When my food is less green, and thereby more sketchy, I dream of being chased, over hill and dale, by multifarious, evilly motivated, bad guys trying to do me bodily harm.
It is my addiction, anthropomorphised, scaring the child in me half to death.
As Gummy and Alona would say, when arguing in the kitchen….” I don’t like”.