Chastity Office 320
To be an “Old timer “ in AA you have to do two things: Don’t drink…and don’t die.
Same thing here…First I stop acting out, then stop whatever might kill me in my 60’s.
Smoking, being fat and inactivity are the Big Three that cause the most cardiovascular disease in the world.
Assuming I am sexually sober…have I stopped smoking, am I thin, am I working out?
Chastity Office 321
I woke up twice this week dreaming of my second wife, and today, my first wife.
In both cases they were physically intimate dreams.
The moment I become conscious my dreams move from dreams, to become fantasies.
I am not responsible for my dreams , but I am responsible for my fantasies…That is middle circle, for me.
In both cases, I stopped and prayed for those women and the fantasy stopped.
Chastity Office 322
What is the difference between selfishness and enlightened self-interest?
Selfishness is something self-destructive that hurts other people.
Enlightened self-interest is something self-creative which benefits other people.
Cheating on my wife is selfish. So is masturbating, getting drunk or taking drugs.
Why? Because I am hurting my health and my self-esteem and making myself less emotionally available to other people…and thereby neglecting them.
Running, prayer, service, laughter and healthy relaxation are enlightened self-interest because I am making myself better…and I am less difficult to be around, so, everyone wins.
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Monday July 3, 2023
20 months of “No sex except to create children”.
Months 17 and 18 were tough. I was getting a little tired of this.
Month 19 was much better because I really cracked down on my health…and began to teach myself to dance.
I mean if you’re not going to have sex…ya gotta do something fun with your body!
Chastity Office 324
Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries!
Even if I am perfectly sexually sober that doesn’t mean that other people are sober in their respective diseases.
I need social resilience when I am around someone who is flaming in their addiction…