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“We stand ready to do anything that will lift the merciless obsession from us.”
P.24 AA 12x12
What if you are not masturbating, objectifying, intriguing or fantasizing…but, the obsession is still on you?
Gandhi says to eat less.
Been trying that the last week and it really does help.
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I heard something I’ve never heard in AA tonight:
“I need my Higher Power to be as “ Cunning, baffling and powerful” as my disease.”
That’s right…I usually think of God as positive, gentle, accepting, even humorous, strong, honest, compassionate, forgiving and patient.
But, I need a God that can get down and do battle in the trenches, when hand-to-hand combat is needed.
“ Cunning, baffling and powerful” …yeah, that’ll work.
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Kurt Vonnegut in Breakfast of Champions says that we do bad things because sometimes we have “bad chemicals in our head”.
Lord,
Give me good chemicals today…and I will do my part with food and exercise to help out.
Amen
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Step Three in Chastity:
Sometimes, I feel attracted to women other than my wife. I turn these feelings over to God.
Sometimes, I want to eat food in quantities that are self-harmful. I surrender these desires to my Higher Power.
Before I make a decision about business, as a Third Step, I run my ideas upstairs in prayer.
If unbidden resentments come up I give these to God, too. Who wants to be carrying around that heartbreak and hurt all day?
Chastity Office 280
Bought my son and I a big steak today, his favorite food.
It was so big that afterward I thought “I wouldn’t feel comfortable having sex with anyone looking this way”.
My chances of having sex with anyone right now is zero…more likely negative numbers, but, I remember thinking “Well, I want to be ready”…
What a sex addict 😂