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Had a tough day yesterday…
Spent the whole night in live and online AA meetings, as they are ubiquitous.
But the moment the readings started at the 6:00am it was like a bullet to the head and the disease was knocked out of me.
Thanks guys. Really thanks.
Steve D.
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Okay, Lord, I give up my past beliefs.
They are “old ideas” that used to work.
I have a new belief and I need "the power to carry it out”.
Fortunately, I can take bite sized pieces, and I can probably do this three hours at a time.
Please, give me the strength, I still have the courage.
Together, we can do this.
Amen
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Old School Gratitude List:
AA sobriety
Sex addiction sobriety
Food abstinence
My son
My health
PrayerCall
My apartment
My wife
San Francisco
Running
Push-ups
Prayer
Writing
Service
Meetings
Phone calls
Music
Movies
My sponsors
Humane income
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Okay…my life is perfect with my wife, to execute God’s will, just for today, one day at a time, three hours at a time.
My wife is perfect for me…
Chastity Office 248
When I was younger I wanted to play as well as Hendrix, write as well as Beethoven and sing as well as Robert Plant.
Didn’t happen…
Much later I was influenced by Gandhi’s writings, particularly his vow of Chastity, especially, within his marriage.
I have been chaste within my marriage for 13 1/2 months, but six weeks ago I began to experiment with a vow of chastity.
But, as with my early musical heroes, I don’t have Gandhi’s chops…
For me, I need to be chaste one day at a time…three hours at a time.
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It used to be that high heels and red nail polish interested me.
Now Contentment, Peace of Mind and Humility are more interesting to me.
Maybe I’m getting old, LOL…or just more sober.
Chastity Office 250
Control?
I have no desire to control my wife.
I have a desire to see where she is strong and loving:
She wakes my three year old every morning, dresses, feeds him and gets him to school on time.
She makes purchases, through Costco and Amazon for our household: PaperTowels , Toilet paper, Wet Wipes, Toddler formula and fruits for our son and we split the costs monthly.
She gets my son to bed on time and cuddles him nightly.
I pay the rent and she, at her request, washes the clothes and cleans the kitchen and bathroom.
I pick up my son from Pre-K, and care for my son five days a week and she takes responsibility for him two days a week.
I am grateful for her service to our family, and in particular to our son.
Chastity Office 251
“I’m going to inject your soul with some sweet rock ‘n’ roll, and shoot you full of rhythm and blues”.
James Taylor
That’s how the 3 PM call felt to me today…
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God,
Thank you for giving another day of life.
I surrender all sex, love, romance and relationship to You, today, three hours at a time.
I am willing to be of service to others: taking phone calls, giving my wife a neck massage (at her request) during her menstrual cycle, bring salmon for us to eat, tickling my son’s cheeks.
And balance that with self-care: Going to meetings, prayer, watching my food, and writing literature.