Chastity Offices 310
Shopping for Mother’s Day with my son on a beautiful 70 degree day in our shopping district.
Now I know that most of the ladies in my neighborhood are competitively looking as attractive as humanly possible.
But, I never saw one of them…No objectifying.
My son and I just shopped for food, flowers, clothes, jewelry and balloons for his Mama.
Thank you God for total freedom. Thank you God for learning about your secret tool…Chastity
Chastity Offices 311
God,
You have told me a million times in a million ways what to do: don’t drink, abstain from sex (for right now) and don’t get fat.
I will try to remember what you have indicated, at every turn of my life…so as not to be as stupid as a mule.
Chastity Offices 312
The Prior and I have been attending a plant based food addiction program, recently.
Gandhi says that “Complete control of the palette makes the vow of Chastity easy”.
Now, I don’t know about easy, but…
The Prior is coming up on two solid years of Chastity. Me? I got 15 months.
We will use any tool that will give us the power to execute this.
Chastity Offices 313
I don’t remember having a mental obsession to drink after the first 30 days of sobriety.
I don’t know whether it’s because this particular obsession with sex originates as an instinct… Or whether I’m just more obsessed with this obsession.
What it feels like is, the need, that I had for physical and emotional safety as a child, was unmet, and I clung to sex, as an idea, since I was five years old, with all my might…to feel better.
Chastity Offices 314
I saw a picture of a stunningly beautiful Asian woman in a bathing suit last night.
It’s funny…I didn’t want to possess her, I wanted to be as sexy as her.
Maybe I’m more of a narcissist than a sex addict?
Nah!…I’m a stone cold sex addict.
Chastity Offices 315
Everybody is different, but, for me, I do not have the opportunity to experience real peace of mind, unless I am chaste.
Otherwise…I’m still lookin’.